Happy Women’s day!

8 Mar


Happy Women’s day dear friends!

Like this  Sia song every girl child at birth may be made to believe ” I’m unstoppable, I’m invincible, I’m so confident….”

There is no difference between a man and a woman. None whatsoever apart from physiological differences. Sky is the limit for a girl child. She can be whatever she chooses to be. I know in many parts of the world this is a struggle.

Life is not beautiful without women – sister’s, friends, partner’s, mother’s, aunts, every one…

Good night dear friends!  Happy women’s day!

Love, Suresh


My journey

5 Mar

“I don’t think of all the misery, but of the beauty that still remains.”

― Anne Frank, The Diary of a Young Girl

I have a colleague in office who has come back from a near death situation. He was in ICU for few months due to a road accident. He speaks to me every day around seven thirty in evening  when most have left for home. He generally needs reassurance . I listen to him and do my bit. Sometimes he is innocuous and sometimes he stuns me with his new found wisdom. We are never rendered same after a life changing experience. He said a few days ago looking at me deeply ” You must have made just one mistake…….” He apologized but was stunned. It is true.” I have made one mistake…”….

Before that a journey in pictures.


I guess few years ago and somewhere in my thirties. Few lost years. My assignments were good but never got a big break. I searched , soul searched, talked to friends & walked to sanity.


Again somewhere in thirties. I had really worked hard and done good assignments. I do not claim am the best but my work was always responsible. I have always been sure. Yet lost years. I spoke to friends, studied spirituality, walked and run my way to sanity. I realized business world is cruel.


I did three to four assignments. Then an colleague got in touch and after many  many interviews got a break again in industry with Polaris. I was forty two. I broke free of assignments with a steady Job. It’s not been easy. The company got acquired. I remain grateful.


Age forty three celebrating birthday alone two years ago with a chocolate donut and coffee. I had a job but my life style remained same. Long walks, run or going to temples or book shops. May be lost the art of making friends. Since spent so much time alone.


I bought a house at age forty four a year ago. I will move in few months.  This where am right now age forty five..

Here’s what have seen or learnt:

– Life is not just about grades, jobs, money or success. I spent numerous hours in hospitals in cities for family. It’s incredibly difficult and solitary journey.

– Talent when rebellious does not conform to societal aspirations or follows the same path. Talent when conformist takes societal clues of grades, jobs, marriage or what ever. But talent is talent whether conformist or non conformist.

– When was young thought priests were a scam, but as got older learnt greedy people are scams.

–  Time is most essential or rather timing is essential.The things that matter when child, adolescence, twenties, thirties, more are not the same.

– The world has moved from prerestroika, liberalisation, globalisation back to nationalisation, Brexit and Far right every where. The more we change, the more we remain same. Why make progress?

– A teacher told me – you should remember three people always – Gandhi, Marx, Buddha. I suggest more options – Gandhi, Mandela, Buddha. Or Gandhi, Mandela, Mother Teresa. Or my choice -Gandhi, Richard Feynman and Leonard Cohen.

– Zen and life taught me all jobs are good. No job is bigger or lesser.  I saw a kennedy centre tribute to Robert De Niro ” He burned a hole even in shoe string productions…”

– Every one has a constituency. Even the most lout and creepy. I was surprised when some one came and asked ” Where did he go and don’t see him around….”  I could only smile

– Elon Musk, Jeff Bezos and Sam Altman may be the people who will change this world.

– Do I think world is a computer simulation? Of course , just check the guy whose hairstyle defies gravity…

– You may or may not succeed in Love. But love makes you a better person. I learnt hard work, quit cigarettes, spent time with my ailing parents…

– There are incredibly kind people in this world. I am a product of kindness of my friends. You never know where you will meet them..

– Even if people disagree with you or take different paths, they are good people..

– Sense of humour is important, it keeps you happy …..

There is more, we will keep covering and revisiting them in posts, like my favorite actor De Niro said in a commencement speech” Without pain what will we talk about…”

I want to go back to early love of science. If you really like rational thought or physics do check Elon Musk TED talk few years ago..

I never could consider marriage given my journey, every good person has advised me to get married, forty five and seeking now, we will see how that pans out..

Did I make a mistake?

Yes one mistake ” Screwed up my education ” I tried catch up but it’s been difficult ..

So my colleague has a god’s voice and he is right…

My journey thus far..

I have no clue where tomorrow will end up. My focus is on today.

This for today dear friends. Every journey is important.Not only ours. But every ones.

Have a good day dear friends!

Love, Suresh

Eye clinic and thoughts…

1 Mar

Health is greatest gift, contentment greatest wealth, faithfulness the best relationship.

― Buddha

I had written this quote in my little pocket book. I have no means to verify if Siddhartha ( Gautama Buddha) actually said such a thing. I generally go by Goodreads.  I do think though health is the greatest gift. This has been the most direct lesson of life.

My exposure is limited to start ups, hospitals and failure. I can speak about them in some sort of authenticity. Failure is the most honest result one can get. There is no pretension while success may hide or conceal things. Start ups are a grey area – there are many good people with mediocre ideas, there are not so great people with super ideas, what prevails is not so easy guess. Hospitals are the laboratory  of life – birth to death. You can’t fake there. You are as transparent as can be.  I have learnt the best decisions are taken in hospitals, failure set’s you on a right path, start ups have more talent but like life character trumps talent.

I went with my mother to a eye clinic this time and am always anticipating the doctor’s report both with calm and anxiety. This time doctor has a generous diagnosis. Both me and my mother are relieved. She suggests as she always does that we should have lunch. I guess these days eat out mostly with my mother after a hospital visit. We pick clothes for my two year old niece. My mother says ” These big shops charge so much…”

A great Indian actor from my native state said once ” There is God above, then there is doctor on earth..” ( Mammootty). I wholeheartedly agree. This is my only regret should have been a doctor. This was in my hands. Rest is luck.

I sometimes feel have a karmic connection with doctors, have had few friends who are doctors and the best ones have the best diagnosis, may be it’s experience, may be it’s clarity, may be it’s their hardworking disciplined lives…

They are as human as we are but they are one of the best. I think most beautiful women are doctor’s assistants (trainee doctors) or a female doctor. Never mind may be my exposure is limited to hospital and clinics.

Tomorrow will need all the real or fake Buddha quotes as go back to work…

Apologies for being away dear friends from blogging , it’s the pressure cooker, daily commute and every day struggles..

But here is the thing, the most important thing:

“The future depends on what you do today.” (  Mahatma Gandhi )

Remember then and we need to focus on the present. I will try to be more regular.

Good night dear friends! Hope you stay healthy always

Love, Suresh


Quote 18 Feb

“Nothing gave her so much pleasure as to hear about the world above the sea. She made her old grandmother tell her all she knew of the ships and of the towns, the people and the animals. To her it seemed most wonderful and beautiful to hear that the flowers of the land had fragrance, while those below the sea had none; that the trees of the forest were green; and that the fishes among the trees could sing so sweetly that it was a pleasure to listen to them. Her grandmother called the birds fishes, or the little mermaid would not have understood what was meant, for she had never seen birds.”

— “The Little Mermaid”

I read a compilation of Hans Christian Andersen’s writings in a Buzzfeed article. I found it refreshing. I really need to ration time  to spend time reading or just plain imagination. Imagination used to be my favorite activity.  I think Moore’s law also exists in life and we have information overload and as a consequence skills enhancement. I am imperfect but want to squeeze time for imagination. I want to read Hans Christian Andersen fairy tales.  I first read ” The Little Mermaid” in school.

For more:

Goodnight dear friends! Hope you have a easy weekend!

Love, Suresh

Steve Jobs -You’ve got to find what you love

14 Feb

You’ve got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven’t found it yet, keep looking. Don’t settle. As with all matters of the heart, you’ll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don’t settle.

― Steve Jobs

I have been reading Steve Job’s Stanford speech for last few days as try to connect the dots of my life. I have always found Steve Jobs very inspirational much before iPhone came ( I still don’t own one ). The simple message is ” You’ve got to find what you love, whether it’s work or your lovers…”


More from Steve Jobs’s Stanford transcript:
“Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.”

For more:

Remember the most important words ” Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish.”

Happy Valentines day dear friends! I remember all my friends because what is love but ” any one who thinks about you, cares about you even for a brief minuscule of a  transient moment….”

Much love, Suresh



Image 4 Feb


Isn’t true of the times..

We must try and retain sovereignty. People are sovereign. We must never forget that…

Have a happy weekend dear friends!

Love, Suresh

Superstitious learning and notes..

26 Jan

Apologies for being away and usual struggles to locate a self and life kept me away. I couldn’t find the reserves to post. Some thoughts:

– If you wish to have a career. You need to make it a focus. Time management is critical.

– The past needs resolution. It keeps surfacing with same demons, what Buddhist’s call ” Store consciousness.” But you got to live with yourself. It’s hard.

– I saw Mr. Trump’s ” me first” speech on television. More and am convinced success is no criteria to judge people.  Success is just a sum total of some attributes and a context.

– I read about Brenda Barnes who brought to light ” work – life debate when she quit as a Pepsi executive to focus on her children.I thought she was brave & life is not easy for working moms.

– I have a feeling Type A people when they take up spirituality. They end up Type A spiritualist.Does that make sense?

– It’s better to listen to  university teacher.You may learn few things by yourself and achieve bit more in the world of matter.

– The most important thing is learning.To objectively evaluate ” What did I do right or wrong today?”.

– To give up superstitious learning. Things which have no causal linkages. I learnt this from a talk by Prof. Jitendra singh, Wharton School.

– I am motivated by love. Will I succeed ? we will find out.

As for superstitious learning. Rita Gunther McGrath, a Professor at Columbia Business School writes “A better way to attribute success to the right causes is to lay out your “theory of the case” and then test it against reality, before outcomes are known. Then, if you can, test the theory under different situations — what the academics call boundary conditions — to see if it holds across those. When you have a practice that seems to produce replicable results, that is worth beginning to believe in.” ( HBR  July 19, 2011 – On the pitfalls of superstitious learning)

Today is Republic day in India. Happy Republic day to fellow country men. Have a easy day dear friends.


Love, Suresh