Archive | May, 2015

Appetite to study

30 May

“Ring the bells that still can ring
Forget your perfect offering
There is a crack in everything
That’s how the light gets in.”

―  Leonard Cohen, Anthem

I had a realization that ” I have no friends, just people who like or dislike me.”  I have only two friends really and do not speak to them as often as would like to. They are married. I am grateful that always had few well wishers. I had joined social media only to connect with people whom liked, my family and people of like minded interests.

I tried to connect with most innocent phase of life – School. Even that didn’t work. I once over heard a conversation ” Suresh met me after some 18 years and ….”. I understood and never pressed again.  My teacher has been most wonderful to me though. I am very grateful. I only have good feelings.

Life happens differently to different people, other wise life would be homogeneous drab like Indianised Chinese noodles or like gremlins from Steven spielberg’s movie. For some reason never forgot the movie ( Gremlins)  which had seen in childhood. I have seen few movies. I want to see ” Piku”.

I also believe life makes us meet people whom we deserve to meet. I  met some special people. They are the charming gardeners who make our souls blossom ( Marcel Proust). We always meet the people we are supposed to meet. This is my firm belief and life experience. Nothing is incidental. We always get to learn something or become better people or our soul blossoms like the great french writer says. Some we love unconditionally for no reason. Some have something to teach us.

Yes, am inspired by the young interns with whom have been working for two months. I have always liked the young minds and want them to reach their fullest potential. In the process, some of their goodness rubbed on me slowly and subconsciously. I realised – I want to study.  I have been a learner all my life. But I want to study a formal course now. I confessed to them as they are reaching their end of internship and getting ready to go back to school. So together we decided on a course. I realised the fees are beyond me now. But will prepare for GMAT.  I am thinking of studies after 20 years. I already have a job. I would wish to do a Executive MBA from a global B – School.  I also want to conquer my demons about being able to study. May be this is my last struggle.

My mother wants me to do other things – get married, buy a new house, do something about ancestral home. I get scared of her dreams – I have no means. But I know what must do first – Every one tells me to find a companion, my friend, my mother, my uncle, every one. I don’t know how to go about it.  After that can plan my life. But I will start preparations for study. I will study like my father wished me to, get up early in the morning and study..

I have no idea whether will  accomplish my dream to study. I will try. But first things first ” get married first Sir ” young boy told me, he is my hero….

I do wish to speak to some of my school friends again..

I went for a walk. My mother forced me to walk. The leg is little better. It will take  more time to heal. Yes,  will never again run on stairs chasing a water bottle…would rather chase my dream 🙂

” Who is wise? One who learns from all. ”

― The Talmud

Good night friends! Hope you have a good weekend!

Love, Suresh


Arvind Subramanian, India’s Chief Economic Adviser on kitney Acheche Din ( How much of good days)…

30 May

Acheche Din ( Good days), has life changed for better, have economic matrices improved…

Please do listen to this delightful interview by the bright and incomparable Barkha Dutt with very personable and extremely competent Arvind Subramanian, India’s Chief Economic adviser for some answers..

Barkha brings a intellectual rigour and is a great interviewer. Arvind Subramanian brings great competence and decency, obviously the prime minister chose very well.

This government is better postioned to deliver than pervious ones simply because they have chosen people well. Every entrepreneur and  great company knows hiring the right people for the job is the most important thing. I have a feeling the current government will come good in delivery.  Arvind Subramanian is a very good choice.  But then Chief economic adviser does not decide the pace of the reforms or the policy making. It is the political executive which decides and the parliament.  Thus it is prime minister and the cabinet who will be accountable for Acheche Din ( Good days). We will wait for the next budget and next year.

I had seen Prime minister ridiculing opposition in a  televised parliamentary debate about  ” MNREGA” , then the next thing finance minister does is increasing the outlay in the union budget. That’s gamesmanship. May be politics does not have new ideas. It must necessarily involve criticism or ridicule of the other. But guess this government has a edge in delivery. I would think this government will spupersede the last government in delivery. I also like opposition’s coinage ” suit boot ki sarkaar” why not ? one gamesmanship must follow another 🙂

The very able chief economic advisor speaks about ” Yes, But narrative” , the perfomance has been good, in the right direction , but there seems to be a disjuntion between, expectations and outcomes, input and outcomes. I am fascinated with this ascription of ” Highly circumscribed power”. If it is so am happy, my sense it is difficult to circum scribe power, but may be its the pragmatism of politics which would eventually and necessarily have to embrace same. I hope some more election losses like Delhi, might help there. Other wise we would have a selfie kingdom.

The Chief economic adviser also mentions the recent data on indirect taxes indicate a underlying dynamism in economy. If the data is consistent then it is indeed a a encouraging sign. Barkha quotes Benjamin Franklin “ there were only two things certain in life: death and taxes” . In India it is the poor who is always blamed for subsidies and rich do not get criticism for all the tax exemptions. Here the Chief economic advisor has the right ideas and does mention the corporate tax exemptions also will be phased out in coming budgets.

The chief economic  adviser makes a mention of  Max Weber ” Politics is strong and slow boring of hard boards” . In respect of taxation, all problems are legacy problems. Be that as it may. The solution needs to be current.

My humble understanding of economics says that though largely free enterprise must be encouraged but state must not abdicate its responsibility of investment and job creation. The infrastructure that is necessary for manufacturing to grow must be created by State. Private investment cannot be relied to create necessary infrastructure. Also large part of India lives in rural india and you must create jobs. That kind of rural income is better than schemes like MNREGA and direct transfer of money. How do you create jobs?

I had seen a NDTV docmentary were young people from villages were given government jobs as ” Home guards” That seven or ten thousand salary will change a family’s destiny. It must set up schools. It must create jobs for teachers. Same for semi skilled, else which Industry will go to villages…

Also the political executive needs to factor a bad monsoon and farmer suicides, Acheche din ( Good days) must be for all…

The good news is India has a very good RBI Governor and Chief Economic adviser, they have both at some stage studied at IIM -A.  So dedicate this interview to  Rahul ( IIM-A) , Namrata & Rajat (IIM -C) who are finishing internship with us, who knows they could be the next Chief Economic adviser or the Reserve Bank Governor..

The Chief Econmic adviser rightly sums up the challenges ” The private investment is a worry, consumption is not as good, public investment ..”

All in all a great interview and very good analysis and questions, the best update on economy, let’s decosntruct ” Acheche Din ( Good days ” with ” Kitne Acheche Din”..:)

I will try to do one more post today.

Have a good day friends!

Love, Suresh

Inner purpose and present moment : Eckhart Tolle

26 May

” When you are on a journey, it is certainly helpful to know where you are going or at least the general direction in which you are moving, but don’t forget: the only thing that is ultimately real about your journey is the step that you are taking at this moment. That’s all there ever is.

Your life’s journey has an outer purpose and an inner purpose. The outer purpose is to arrive at your goal or destination, to accomplish what you set out to do, to achieve this or that, which, ofcourse, implies future. But if your destination, or the steps you are going to take in the future, take up so much of your attention that they become more important to you than the step you are taking now, then you completely miss the journey’s inner purpose, which has nothing to do with where you are going or what you are doing, but everything to do with how. It has nothing to do with future but everything to do with the quality of your consciousness at this moment.The outer purpose belongs to the horizontal dimension of space and time; the inner purpose concerns a deepening of your being in the vertical dimension of timeless Now. Your outer journey may contain a million steps; your inner journey only has one: the step you are taking right now. As you become more deeply aware of this one step, you realize that it already contains within itself all the other steps as well as the destination. This one step then becomes transformed into an expression of perfection, an act of great beauty and quality. It will have taken you into Being, and the light of Being will shine through it. This is both the purpose and fulfillment of your inner journey, the journey into yourself. ”

― Eckhart Tolle, The Power of Now: A Guide to Spiritual Enlightenment

From time to time have to remind myself that only thing that is important is the present moment. The only path to inner purpose  and outer purpose of life is the step we take right now. If we give our very best to present moment, we should be okay. It is the only thing that is real and in our hands. We can also be in harmony with existence and be stress free. If you were to read only one spiritual book, would recommend , Eckhart Tolle, The Power of Now: A Guide to Spiritual Enlightenment,

I had shared Robert De Niro’s NYU Tisch school speech which was about grit, collaboration, relationships, doing your best and will surely aid in our goals or destinations the outer purpose of life. If we marry same with Eckhart Tolle’s message of realization in present moment the inner purpose of life. We could have harmony and assuredly move in our chosen paths. Right dear friends!

Hope you have a good day dear friends! The inner and outer purpose is realized in the present moment.

Love, Suresh


“yeah, you’re f—d. The good news is that’s not a bad place to start” : Rober De Niro ( New York University Tisch School of the Arts’ commencement )

25 May

I agree with the great actor, but more from Robert De Niro’s New York University Tisch School of the Arts’ commencement speech:

“You made it — and, you’re f—ed.”

“You discovered a talent, developed an ambition and recognized your passion. When you feel that, you can’t fight it — you just go with it. When it comes to the arts, passion should always trump common sense. You aren’t just following dreams, you’re reaching for your destiny. … You’re an artist — yeah, you’re f—d. The good news is that’s not a bad place to start.”

“Now that you’ve made your choice — or, rather, succumbed to it — your path is clear. Not easy, but clear. You have to keep working, it’s that simple. You got through Tisch, that’s a big deal. Or, to put it another way, you got through Tisch? Big deal! ”

“A new door is opening for you — a door to a lifetime of rejection. It’s inevitable. How do you cope? I hear that Valium and Vicodin work! … You don’t want to block the pain too much. Without the pain, what would we talk about?”

“Rejection might sting, but my feeling is that often, it has very little to do with you. When you’re auditioning or pitching, the director or producer or investor may have someone different in mind, that’s just how it is. That happened recently when I was auditioning for the role of Martin Luther King in Selma! Which was too bad because I could’ve played the hell out of that part — I felt it was written for me! But the director had something different in mind, and she was right. It seems the director is always right.”

“You’re not responsible for the entire job, but your part in it. … You will put your everything into everything you do. You won’t judge the characters you play, and you shouldn’t be distracted by judgments on the works you’re in. Whether you’re working for Edward or Fellini or Martin Scorsese, your commitment and your process will be the same.”

“The way the director gets to be right is you help him or her be right. … You’ve been hired because the director saw something in your audition, your reading, in you that fit their concept. You may be given the opportunity to try it your way, but the final decision will be the director’s. … It’s best when you can work it out together.”

“you didn’t get that part” or “you didn’t get that waiter’s job at the White Oak Tavern. … There will be times when your best isn’t good enough. There can be many reasons for this, but as long as you give your best, it’s okay. Did you get straight A’s in school? If you did, good for you, congratulations. But in the real world, you’ll never get straight A’s again.”

” “Treasure the associations and friendships and working relationships with the people in your classes and your easily work. You never know what might come from it,” he said in closing. “I’m here to hand out my pictures and resumes to the directing and producing graduates!”

“Rejection — it isn’t personal. “The actor suggested a mantra for the new grads: “Next!”

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I am working with interns  and believe me when you are with young people ” You want to speak the truth. Nothing but the truth.” The great actor is speaking the truth in a funny and a nonchalant way and it’s a nice talk. Not just for acting students, it has nuggets of wisdom for all of us. The actor speaks about ” Rejection not being personal” or ” To always think of Next or ”  to work in collaboration” or ” There should always be space for two opinions” and most importantly in my opinion ” Don’t be obdurate”.

Yeah, you’re f—d. So what?  me have been there many times..

But what matters is ” Always do your best. Next”

The actor shares what he would tell his own children ” I say, Don’t be afraid to fail. I urge them to take chances, to keep an open mind, to welcome new experiences and new ideas. I tell them that if you don’t go, you’ll never know. You just have to go out there, be bold and take your chances.”

But for grown up people, would humbly reiterate ”  Don’t be Obdurate”. My personal experience says it is not right or wrong but most important is to be flexible..

Good night friends! Hope you like the great actor’s speech. Welcome to world of De Niro.

Yeah, You’re…:)

Love, Suresh

Quote 23 May

” He always thought of the sea as ‘la mar’ which is what people call her in Spanish when they love her. Sometimes those who love her say bad things of her but they are always said as though she were a woman. Some of the younger fishermen, those who used buoys as floats for their lines and had motorboats, bought when the shark livers had brought much money, spoke of her as ‘el mar’ which is masculine.They spoke of her as a contestant or a place or even an enemy. But the old man always thought of her as feminine and as something that gave or withheld great favours, and if she did wild or wicked things it was because she could not help them. The moon affects her as it does a woman, he thought.”
―  Ernest Heminway, The Old Man and the Sea 

Does the moon affect the moods of a lady 🙂

I am immobile and recovering wanted to see some movies , did catch little bit of Casino Royale on television but soon decided to read the great writer’s book. I am reading and its been wonderful. I remember a colleague making a remark as we watched some presentations ” He spoke like he owns the space.” It is absolutely the way feel about the great writer and he absolutely owns ” Fishing “. It is as riveting as a National Geographic excursion on fishing and sea. The details, the command and structure. So far very compelling. I will do one more post as finish the book.

I am little better and will hopefully be good tomorrow. As for work need to flow with tide. As for love….” No one should be alone in their old age, he thought.”…

Good night friends! I want to try fiction on blog…

Hope you have a happy weekend!

Love, Suresh


Secret Garden – Bruce Springsteen

22 May

Secret Garden – Bruce Springsteen

She’ll let you in her house
If you come knockin late at night
She’ll let you in her mouth
If the words you say are right
If you pay the price
She’ll let you deep inside
But there’s a secret garden she hides

She’ll let you in her car
To go drivin round
She’ll let you into the parts of herself
That’ll bring you down
She’ll let you in her heart
If you got a hammer and a vise
But into her secret garden, don’t think twice

You’ve gone a million miles
How far’d you get
To that place where you can’t remember
And you can’t forget

She’ll lead you down a path
There’ll be tenderness in the air
She’ll let you come just far enough
So you know she’s really there
She’ll look at you and smile
And her eyes will say
She’s got a secret garden
Where everything you want
Where everything you need
Will always stay
A million miles away

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This for today.

I ran down the stairs/ fell down / I badly sprained my leg..
I drove in pain/ The most excruciating stretch/ I didn’t chase her/ I chased a water bottle..
Did I have a wrong thought? I broke a six month vow – never a wrong thought, never again Sir…
I hope she is waiting,there’ll be tenderness in air, she will let you inside..
She’s got a secret garden she hides..

Goodnight friends! I will have to take rest as I recover, There is a secret garden, where everything you want..

Love, Suresh


In My Secret Life – Leonard Cohen

21 May

In My Secret Life

I saw you this morning.
You were moving so fast.
Can’t seem to loosen my grip
On the past.
And I miss you so much.
There’s no one in sight.
And we’re still making love
In My Secret Life.

I smile when I’m angry.
I cheat and I lie.
I do what I have to do
To get by.
But I know what is wrong.
And I know what is right.
And I’d die for the truth
In My Secret Life.

Hold on, hold on, my brother.
My sister, hold on tight.
I finally got my orders.
I’ll be marching through the morning,
Marching through the night,
Moving cross the borders
Of My Secret Life.

Looked through the paper.
Makes you want to cry.
Nobody cares if the people Live or die.
And the dealer wants you thinking
That it’s either black or white.
Thank G-d it’s not that simple
In My Secret Life.

I bite my lip.
I buy what I’m told:
From the latest hit,
To the wisdom of old.
But I’m always alone.
And my heart is like ice.
And it’s crowded and cold
In My Secret Life.

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This for today. I dedicate to every one to who liked me for a day, a month, a year or many years…

As pass through life / am always reminded / I miss them so very much…

But I’m always alone/ And my heart is like ice/ And it’s crowded and cold.. In My Secret Life

Good night freinds!

Love, Suresh