Archive | February, 2015
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Richard Marx – Endless Summer Nights (1988)

28 Feb

I wanted to write a post, but am little under the weather,  tired..

A beautiful song from another time, Richard Marx ” Endless summer nights” ..

“Endless Summer Nights”

Summer came and left without a warning
All at once I looked and you were gone
And now you’re looking back at me
Searching for a way that we can be like we were before

Now I’m back to what I knew before you
Somehow the city doesn’t look the same
I’d give my life for one more night
Of having you here to hold me tight; oh, please
Take me there again
Oh, oh

And I remember how you loved me
Time was all we had until the day we said goodbye
I remember every moment of those endless summer nights

I still recall the walks along the beaches
And the way your hair would glisten in the sun
Rising in the afternoon
Making love to you under the moon, oh

Do you remember all the nights we spent in silence
Every single breath you took was mine
We can have it all again
Say that you’ll be with me when the sun brings your heart to mine
Oh, oh

There’s only so much I can say
So please don’t run away from what we have together
It’s only you and me tonight
So let’s stay lost in flight
Oh, won’t you please surrender

This for tonight, good night friends, hope you have a lovely day!

Love, suresh

 

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Twenty years..

22 Feb

I am stretched and tired. I have work to do. But must blog. I have a need to do it.  One of favorite actors Naseeruddin Shah had said ” You should act, only if you have a need to do it, otherwise don’t do it.” Same for blogging and sharing a journey. It’s all that have. Also these day’s blog only on weekends. I have a need to do it. Though am half- asleep and not so lucid.  Never mind love Mascherano as much as Messi.

Three reactions in a month..

” You really hit a bad patch Suresh and you managed to be sane and unfazed ” said somebody who changed my life, me nodded in gratefulness as we traveled together, deeply thankful..

” You fell down a thousand times and woke up a thousand times ” My lawyer friend told me emotionally and we have been freinds for a long time.

” Atleast  you got what you deserved, now make a name for yourself ..” Another freind called me up and spoke for long time as we always do.

My friends are not emotional, they just have  seen me silently grind..

“It took me twenty years” told them , yes twenty years murmered half- sheepishly, half -smilingly ,as am wont to:)

” They sentenced me to twenty years of boredom
For trying to change the system from within
I’m coming now, I’m coming to reward them
First we take Manhattan, then we take Berlin

I’m guided by a signal in the heavens
I’m guided by this birthmark on my skin
I’m guided by the beauty of our weapons
First we take Manhattan, then we take Berlin ”

( Leonard Cohen/ First we take Manhattan)

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My dear freinds and well wisher’s, my new job 🙂

It took me twenty years. Twenty – one  and half precisely. 1993 started, was twenty two year old student, restless, happy, shy, forever falling in love and miserable. 2015, happy, shy,  still in love and miserable 🙂

I am no more restless and have found something inside, it comes from sufferring, endurance and grace. You have to find it. It’s both resilience and surrender. I am a believer in grind and grace. It’s god’s will and incomparable mercy that am back on bogey street, am just a ” lazy lump of corruption ” like once a woman told me over phone, tell me what does it mean 🙂

I believed every day for these twenty years, my well wishers did..

It could have all gone wrong, horribly wrong. I survived and all he said graciously was ” Iam just a channel, life get’s fair at some stage.” I was so grateful.

My heroes are my friends and my young cousins  who are just twenty two year olds you know, like I was once upon a time..

The real good people never ridicule you, the real ones I mean, the real ones have compassion, majority sneer at your struggles and suffering..

The good are always good..

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I went to golf course and was invited for a meeting. I found the ambience lovely and wondered should I pick up golf ? Its suits my temperament and green fields beckon me..

I finish my meeting, do not think much about the beautiful lady in blue and go home. I wanted to catch up on sleep. A pleasant saturday afternoon.

javier mascherano

Javier Alejandro Mascherano and his beautiful partner. I have written about Fifa world cup and Mascherano, one of my heroes, relentless and hardworking, F. C Barcelona player is Rafa of soccer. Brilliant and brave. I have learnt to embrace hardwork like taking a shower, brushing your teeth, a shave, then hardwork..

My freind told me in Mumbai ” If you don’t have capital, you can only be diligent, its simple economics ” true, but discipline, grit helped me survive twenty years. I had nothing except wishes and prayers.

Mascherano picture: https://www.facebook.com/Javier14Mascherano/photos/a.400054903379365.104117.397444863640369/907150169336500/?type=1&theater

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I am a believer in one above and it is by grace of god everything happens..

” The lord is fulfiller of aspirations and the giver of all the comforts in his power is the elysian cow so, o my soul, meditate, on such lord, then alone, shall thou obtain all the comforts”

( This from sikh holy texts..)

It is god’s grace which is supreme..

Finally remember every kind word and blessing, every thoughtfulness, every encouragement that came my way in these twenty years.

When I was twenty one year old and a atheist, had two heroes : my father and a good girl. I looked upto them for peace and guidance. They set me on my journey. My father gave me a life and my then friend gifted me two shirts as a parting gift, wore one of them for interviews and other for social occasions. My friend never met me again. My father passed away. I was horribly sad but survived.

I remember them.

Iam not special. In a smart and connected world. Where every one is smart. I am zen. I have a beginners mind. A thousand questions..

Iam  just a normal person who  has a new job, but if any one who comes this side and is going through a tough time, remember ” Never give up. Never ever give up. Every thing changes. It takes one man. one woman. one opportunity.”

Goodnight friends!  Have a nice week ahead! Till then..

please do read this fine Will Smith interview from Esquire: http://www.esquire.com/entertainment/interviews/a9938/will-smith-interview-0315/

Love, Suresh

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Eric Clapton – Tears in Heaven

21 Feb

I wanted to write a post, but have work to do 🙂

This my thoughts, this for my estranged friend…..

I have my work, my teachers, my friends, my army, even the parking lot guy seems to like me …still sometimes it’s so hard..

I wish could listen to somebody, yes that’s what look for in a partner, some one whom to listen to..

The one’s who have known me, know me listen..

Can I listen to young ? Will my journey be a burden? cannot really ask out people who are so much younger,  so what do I do ?

Nor am the one to throw myself at first one, you see, I may not be that, but am a good guy 🙂

So what do I do ? It’s terrible to get old, terrible when you are neither young or old 🙂

May be I don’t belong here in heaven , or may be I do, but do know everything changes and everything is by will of God..

I also know may not get what I need, but will get what I deserve..

See got the job 🙂

But why no news haan 🙂

Goodnight friends, thank you for listening to my tonight wailing 🙂 now must work.

Have fun!

Love, Suresh

 

 

 

Quietness and productivity

15 Feb

If were to describe myself. I am a quiet person with some sudden and inexplicable need for fun and happiness. Remember the male stray dog analogy shared in earlier posts 🙂

People who know would categorize myself as quiet. Yes, am quiet. I do talk when have to or feel like. I do what ever work profile demands. My great inspiration to work is what the brilliant and great director  Martin Scorsese said of one of the greatest actors Robert  de Niro in a AFI felicitationHe never looks down on the character he plays, he never judges them, that way he is out of character too and is a good man.”  I am not the great actor. I have always humbly tried to do best of whatever came my way. So am from De Niro school of work 🙂

Susan Cain in a wonderfully instructive TED talk on the power of introverts said ”  Our most important institutions, our schools and our workplaces, they are designed mostly for extroverts and for extroverts’ need for lots of stimulation. And also we have this belief system right now that I call the new groupthink, which holds that all creativity and all productivity comes from a very oddly gregarious place.”

She is very right. There is a extroversion bias. I work in a open plan office for first time, my greatest challenge is to find a quiet space to think, understand and do work. It’s like seeking zen in a market place. Every one seems to talk all the time,  Yes they are talking about work, rightly so..

I want to share this fast company piece on ” The link between quietness and productivity”.  Roberta Matuson states virtues of quiet..

Being quiet calms others. Quiet people have the ability to calm those around them. For example, when everyone is stressing out because it looks like a team isn’t going to meet their deadlines, it’s usually the quiet people who are able to calm people down and carry them over the finish line.

Being quiet conveys confidence. You don’t have to prove anything to anyone when you are confident. You know you do a good job and you believe that eventually others will take notice.

Being quiet means you think before you speak. Quiet people are usually thoughtful thinkers. They think things through before making a statement. Something you probably wish many of your workers would do before taking up your valuable time.”

Please see for more : http://www.fastcompany.com/3000226/link-between-quietness-and-productivity

I follow the De Niro school at work and De Niro school in life 🙂

Iam not good as the great actor, but do not judge work and do what it takes and come out a human being.. Yes, am quiet and shy in life.. with some inexplicable need for fun and happiness.

Good night friends! Those who are quiet are also good..

Have a nice week ahead!

Love, Suresh

 

 

 

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A Indian Valentine..

14 Feb

This is one of my favorite song of growing up years, long before ” positive thinking ” became in vogue, this song gave me great hope and happiness. When a child, you are synonymous with all things positive, nevertheless this beautiful song by one of the greats of Indian film music  Lata Mangeshkar gave me lot of hope. I grew up in a time where music and Literature were  source of inspiration. Existential issues came for me pretty early in Adolescence. I love this song and its picturised on most beautiful Indian film couple Hema malini and Dharmendra. I do not think there has been more beautiful actors than them on Indian silverscreen. But its the song which inspires me, the lyrics ( Anand Bakshi wrote these lines)

kitne din aankhein tarsengi
kitne din aankhein tarsengi
kitne din yoon dil tarasenge
ek din to baadal barsenge
ai mere pyaase dil
aaj nahin to kal mehkegi
khwaabon ki mehfil
kitne din aankhein tarsengi

How much should the eyes long( strain)
How much should the eyes long( strain)
How much must the heart long ( strain)
One day the clouds must shower (rain)
My longing ( thirsty) heart
If not today, tomorrow will bloom
my entourage( garden) of desires
Hou much should the eyes long ( strain)

 

soone soone se
murjhaaye se hain kyun ummeedon ke chehre
kaanton ke sar pe hi
baandhe jaayenge
phoolon ke sehre
soone soone se
murjhaaye se hain kyun ummeedon ke chehre
kaanton ke sar pe hi
baandhe jaayenge
phoolon ke sehre
naya zamaanaa aayegaa
naya zamaanaa aayega
kitne din
kitne din yoon dil tarsenge
ek din to baadal barsenge
ai mere pyaase dil
aaj nahin to kal mehkegi
khwaabon ki mehfil

Sad, saddened
Why are you saddened my hopeful( aspirational) face
It is by thorns are tied
bundle of flowers
A new world will dawn
A new world will dawn
How many days
How much should the eyes long( strain)
How much should the eyes long( strain)
How much must the heart long ( strain)
One day the clouds must shower (rain)
My longing ( thirsty) heart
If not today, tomorrow will bloom
my entourage( garden) of desires


zindagi pe sabka ek saa haq hai
sab tasleem karenge
saari khushiyaan saare dard baraabar
hum taqseem karenge
zindagi pe sabka ek saa haq hai
sab tasleem karenge
saari khushiyaan saare dard baraabar
hum taqseem karenge
naya zamaanaa aayegaa
naya zamaanaa aayegaaaa
kitne din
kitne din yoon dil tarsenge
ek din tho baadal barsenge
ai mere pyaase dil
aaj nahin to kal mehkegi
khwaabon ki mehfil
kitne din aankhein tarsengi

Every one has a equal right on life
Every one prays
All happiness and sadness in equal
we will distribute ( evenly)
Every one has a equal right on life
Every one prays
All happiness and sadness in equal
we will distribute ( evenly)
A new world will dawn
A new world will dawn
How many days
How much should the eyes long( strain)
How much should the eyes long( strain)
How much must the heart long ( strain)
One day the clouds must shower (rain)
My longing ( thirsty) heart
If not today, tomorrow will bloom
my entourage( garden) of desires

Hope you like my humble bit at transalation, as child would always sing ” Naya zamana aayega, Naya zamana aayega” A New dawn will come, A New dawn will come…

We have no idea what life has in store of us, nevertheless we all  have our unique journeys, unique experiences and we will all make it..

That is why am so happy with new experiment in Delhi, AAP party is an unique experience like no other, its leader’s journey Arvind Kejriwal’s journey is like no other..

Thus begets the question, why should we compare, why should we compare with another’s journey, why ?

I captioned this post as ” Indian valentine”. Today is valentines day. My valentine is my brother. My mother is at my sisters place.  My mother and my sister would be part of the experience too if they were here. My family is my valentine. I made a decision very early in life, when was about twenty, what ever happens will not leave my brother alone. He was fifteen.  Except for a span of seven years he lived in Bangalore, we have lived together.  He is innocent and realises my role in his life. Little role, wonder if any body else does ?

Did I meet women in my journey? of course did, all beautiful and intelligent. I always liked intelligent and good girls. But ” good ” needs assurance from the whole world some times ( I remember my friend telling me : my lab asistant does not like you, I was aghast ( Who is he..), this from yesteryears, from another time 🙂

Never mind, another song which makes me happy, would dedicate to a valentine, if had one..

When am tired and depressed, listen or watch a Dev Anand song, he was cool before cool became cool in these parts 🙂

The actress is a favorite actor of mine, Nutan, isn’t she beautiful..

Do I like someone ? Yes I do, I have no clue where will end up, have no guile in matters of heart…

We will see about women later 🙂

My valentine then is my brother, my family and my compay Polaris who gave me Cadbury  daily milk chocolate!!!

Now I must sleep, otherwise will be like a dead man walking next week..

I want to wish valentine day to all people love, have loved, my school, my school teachers, my family, my friends and my company..

Goodnight friends! Remember ” A New world will dawn, A new world will dawn..”

Love, suresh

 

 

Quote 10 Feb

“First they ignore you, then they ridicule you, then they fight you, and then you win.”

―  Mahatma Gandhi

Today is a historic day for democracy in India, AAP , Aam Adami Party ( Common man’s party) has won a landslide victory in Delhi. I feel people are the best judge of any political process than pundits. They know best. They have overwhelmingly gone with AAP. My humble request to AAP would be :

“Create model state of governance in Delhi and showcase delhi to rest of country after next five years at the hustings. Not now. ”

For more : http://www.nytimes.com/aponline/2015/02/09/world/asia/ap-as-india-politics.html?_r=0

And be humble. Humility is strength.

Goodnight friends! Hope you have a lovely day! Remember everything is possible..

Love, Suresh

 

 

 

 

 

The Gypsy’s Wife – Leonard Cohen

8 Feb

This for tonight 🙂

The Gypsy’s Wife – Leonard Cohen

And where, where, where is my Gypsy wife tonight
I’ve heard all the wild reports, they can’t be right
But whose head is this she’s dancing with on the threshing floor
whose darkness deepens in her arms a little more

And where, where is my Gypsy wife tonight?
Where, where is my Gypsy wife tonight?

Ah the silver knives are flashing in the tired old cafe
A ghost climbs on the table in a bridal negligee
She says, “My body is the light, my body is the way”
I raise my arm against it all and I catch the bride’s bouquet

And where, where is my Gypsy wife tonight?…

Too early for the rainbow, too early for the dove
These are the final days, this is the darkness, this is the flood
And there is no man or woman who can’t be touched
But you who come between them will be judged

And where, where is my Gypsy wife tonight?…

Source : http://www.leonardcohenfiles.com/album7.html#54

Goodnight dear friends! Hope to see you again soon and till then take good care..

Love, suresh